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I KNOW I’m not the only one struggling. I KNOW I’m in a very privileged position. I KNOW I am being selfish. I KNOW people see and believe different that I do. But oh👏🏼my👏🏾dern. I’ve been struggling to accept my world right now. I’ve been struggling coming to terms with how long this mess has gone on and how I still see no light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve been struggling with the guilt I feel for my kids-especially Lilah. We’ve had some pretty rough stuff hit our house the last two months and I struggle with having to attend doctors or medical appointments alone. Without my teammate by my side. I struggle sharing my life when sometimes it doesn’t feel authentic because our world is so upside down and backwards right now. Im sharing this only in hopes that someone reads it and doesn’t feel alone. We’re not alone. I get that. I thank the Lord every single day that my family is here and healthy. Maybe I’m sharing also to not feel alone. Some days can feel so clouded by what’s truth and whats fear. My truth is God and because God is with me I will not be afraid. But I can still vent about it on Instagram right?