Brittany Lutz, the wife of actor Kellan Lutz, recently shared how excited she and her husband are to welcome their daughter into the world after a devastating late-term pregnancy loss.
In February 2020, the couple announced the tragic news that they had lost their baby seven months into Brittany’s pregnancy.
“This day last year, 1/30/20, in my 7th month of pregnancy, I walked into a drs appointment SO excited to see our girl. Kellan was in NY and I was in LA where our dr was. (He was going to wrap the show & we were going to deliver in LA) I was practically giddy in the drs office and couldn’t wait to send him pictures and videos of our daughter,” Brittany shared in an emotional reflection on Instagram. “Instead, I had to call him and tell him that our sweet girl was with with Jesus. Even though she was still in my body. Talk about psychological torment.”
Brittany recalled the difficulty of the weeks that followed the heartbreaking news.
“The weeks that followed were rough. I was trying to wrap my head around everything that had happened. One minute I was creating a birth plan, the next I’m lucky to be alive and on birth control bc if I got pregnant again I could die. Um, what? How was this my life? I had so much invested in the ‘next chapter’ of our lives and it was literally HERE. Until it wasn’t. I was confused. We were broken,” Brittany said.
Despite the immense loss, Brittany held fast to her faith in God.
“But the one thing I did intentionally was try to give God EVERYTHING. Not just the things I understood or felt comfortable giving Him,” Brittany said. “Did I want to know the reasons? Yes. Was I tempted to go into dark, dark spirals of depression and disappointment because of all I had lost? Yes.”
Brittany continued: “But I knew God could only trade the ashes for beauty if they were in His hands. As long as I was holding onto my pain He couldn’t turn it into purpose.”
As the couple expects their daughter, Brittany reflected on God’s faithfulness to carry her through that grief and ultimately turn their trial into praise to Him.
“So whatever is hurting your heart, whatever has been stolen from you in the last year, whatever you’re holding onto until you know all the answers, I’d like to encourage you to let it go. What if I leaned into my emotions instead of God’s loving arms and refused to let go until He showed me why I needed to? As if He “owes” me anything! I don’t know where I’d be,” Gonzales maintained.
Brittany added: “I don’t know why bad things happen. But I do know I’ve walked through them with God and solo and every single time I’ve invited Him into the pain rather than blaming Him for it, I have experienced life on a level I could literally NEVER have imagined.”
Brittany is excited for the incredible gift of a baby girl and said that God used her experience to strengthen her faith and marriage.
“One year to the day later I sit here 35 weeks pregnant with the most incredible gift in my belly. My marriage stronger than ever. My faith stronger than ever. And to think I’d have none of this had I not walked through that,” Brittany concluded.
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