Actress Kerry Washington ‘Prayed’ For Help Conquering Eating Disorder
By Movieguide® Contributor
Actress Kerry Washington recently revealed how the power of prayer helped her through an eating disorder.
“I could feel how the abuse was a way to really hurt myself, as if I didn’t want to be here,” she said of her college struggles with disordered eating and suicidal thoughts. “It scared me that I could not want to be here because I was in so much pain.”
The SCANDAL star shared that it wasn’t until she prayed for help that things started to change.
“The first thing that put me on my knees—like the first time I got on my knees and prayed to some power greater than myself to say like, ‘I can’t do this, I need some help’—was with my eating disorder,” Washington explained.
The actress said she is doing much better now but still has to monitor her habits.
“I wouldn’t say that I never act out with food, it’s just very different now,” Washington explained. “It’s not to the extreme. There’s no suicidal ideation, that is not where I am anymore. The bottom has gotten a lot higher where just a little discomfort with it is enough for me to know this is a way to check myself. But it definitely looks a lot healthier. It’s a lot easier. It’s a lot saner than it used to be.”
Washington previously opened up about her struggles with disordered eating in an interview with Essence.
“I used food as a way to cope,” she said. “It was my best friend…Keeping my behavior a secret was painful and isolating. There was a lot of guilt and a lot of shame.”
Washington added, “Learning how to love myself and my body is a lifelong process. But I definitely don’t struggle the way I used to.”
The actress has also spoken about her faith before, telling the Christian Post, “When I look at my marriage, and I look at my kids, fundamentally, they are proof of God to me. Because I know that God loves me to have put those people in my life. And that sense of, like, knowing that God loves me. That, to me, is so much of how I make the decisions about the activism that I do and the content that I make.”