How Reflection Reframes HGTV Star’s Parenting Mindset

Published: December 4, 2024

How Reflection Reframes HGTV Star’s Parenting Mindset

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As the year comes to a close, HGTV star Joanna Gaines is thinking about what it means to be who you are without letting shadows overtake you.

“It’s become tradition for me to set aside a couple of hours toward the end of each year to scroll through the year’s photos on my phone, clear the clutter, and save the moments that defined our life as a family,” Gaines wrote in Nov. 12 blog. “If I’m really on top of things, I’ll turn those memories into a physical album and add it to the stack we keep in our living room. This year, as I scanned my camera roll, I had to stop at a photo Chip took of Crew sometime last spring, out on the boat, a day of fishing ahead of them.”

“The picture shows Crew, his body bent over the boat’s edge, his face hovering close to the water,” she said of her youngest child, age 6. “I’m thinking the sun must have been directly overhead because the majority of the snapshot is Crew’s reflection painted in the shallow water, his wide boyish grin staring back at him — at us.”

The photo exactly captures how she thinks of him, full of “curiosity and confidence.”

“His body language tells me he’s thinking about jumping in. Like so many times before, I witness the way he gives himself over to a sort of wild love for adventure whenever nature’s at his feet. His eyes, though, are where I pause the longest. They tell me that he is content, completely, with what and who he sees,” she said.

While parents feel full of eager hope for their young kids as they know they’re soaking everything in and learning, at the same time, it can be hard to imagine them any different than they are now.

“Unlikely, you tell yourself, that they’ll ever become anything other than wholeheartedly them,” Gaines said. “But the impossible can become possible. As a mother of five, I’ve watched how the weight of things can shift for my kids as they get older. How it shifted for me, too.”

“I think this happens to all of us, actually,” she continued. “For some, it happens slowly. For others, it feels like overnight.”

“Either way, over time, the profile of the person staring back at you gets complicated. Mostly because we start to let in other people’s views, too — their expectations, their assumptions. We start to see ourselves plus who we think other people see; or worse, who we think other people want to see. Or, we simply start to notice that other people are watching, and the idea that eyes are on us can change everything.”

As doubts creep in, courage and curiosity are harder to grasp, and optimism becomes shadowed.

“Those shadows we all grow into. It’s the place our mind goes where insecurities and shame and fear of failing hold court. It’s the place where we’ll withdraw or shrink up and steal away,” Gaines said. ”Where we might think we’ve reached safety — but never for long. And never for the better.”

“And while we’ll willingly retreat to some shadows, others we can get caught in,” the FIXER UPPER star said. “As a parent, as a spouse, as a friend, but also as an individual, I’m learning that I need to be equally aware of the shadow I carry and the one I cast.”

“When it comes to the person my kids are slowly unveiling, I don’t want the life I’ve chosen and the choices I’ve made — good or bad — to pigeonhole how they lead their own,” she expressed. “I want to be close but never overshadow.”

She doesn’t want her children to ever lose sight of themselves.

“When they look at the person staring back at them, I want them to know how to see — really see — themselves exactly as they were made to be,” she said.

“And so, when I look at that picture of Crew, I can’t help but feel grateful for the light. Without the sun breaking through, there’d be no reflection mirrored in the water. And without truth to lend light to untruth, there’d be nothing real to cling to.”

“Reflections, by their very nature, need light to exist. So that’s the best we can offer Crew, and all of our kids: a spot beneath the sun,” she said. “More moments for them to see themselves beyond our shadow. Beyond their own shadows that inevitably creep in.”

She knows she can’t control everything, but she can point them back to the light and their “God-given purpose.”

“For Chip and me, that looks like encouragement and accountability. It looks like applauding moments of authenticity and being unbending in moments of unbelief,” she said. “And it looks like quiet mornings out on the boat, waiting for the light to break through the shadows, expectant for what it has to show us.”

Gaines often captures Crew’s sweet spirit on her social media.

On Nov. 21, she shared a photo of a note he left her with a few flowers. It read, “Just because I 💗 U Mom. 💗 Crew.”