By Mallory Mattingly
Even after eight years of sobriety, TWO AND A HALF MEN actor Charlie Sheen is still learning how to forgive himself.
“I have more days behind me than in front of me, and that’s fine,” he told PEOPLE in a new interview as he approaches his 60th birthday.
“But I’m feeling pretty good! Most guys my age, they usually have a bad back or knees. Somehow I dodged that,” he added, “I just have a bad shoulder that I have to take Advil for.”
Sheen struggled with addiction and other poor life choices in his 40s, but now he prefers to spend his time with friends or his parents or working on new projects,
His new book, The Book of Sheen, releases on Sept. 9, while his Netflix documentary, AKA CHARLIE SHEEN, drops on Sept. 10.
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“It’s not about me setting the record straight or righting all the wrongs of my past,” the actor said of the two projects releasing just a day apart.
“Most of my 50s were spent apologizing to the people I hurt. I also didn’t want to write from the place of being a victim,” he added. “I wasn’t, and I own everything I did. It’s just me, finally telling the stories in the way they actually happened.”
He then joked, “The stories I can remember, anyway.”
Both tackle Sheen’s battle for sobriety.
“Now sober, Sheen delivers a clear-eyed narrative of his highs and lows with humor, candor, and a vivid, captivating writing style that is uniquely his. The Book of Sheen reads like a far-fetched, overstuffed novel of Hollywood life — yet it is all true,” a part of the book’s synopsis reads.
AKA CHARLIE SHEEN sees the actor tell “his story in this candid two-part documentary tracing his dazzling Hollywood rise, tabloid-topping fall and road to recovery.”
He was finally ready to get sober in 2017.
“You have to be willing,” he told PEOPLE. “I keep a [mental list] of the worst, most shameful things I’ve done, and I can look at that in my head if I feel like having a drink.”
The hardest part for his recovery his is forgiving himself.
“Forgiveness is still an evolving thing,” he explained. “I still get what I call the ‘shame shivers.’ These are the moments that hit me, of the heinous memories and choices and consequences. They’re getting farther in between, so I guess that’s progress. What has been interesting about making amends is that most people have been like, ‘Hey yeah, we’re good, man, but we hope you’ve also forgiven yourself.’”
Sobriety was one of the best things Sheen did in his life, and his latest projects will take his fans behind-the-scenes into his recovery process.
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