‘One Day, We’ll Get to Meet Our Baby’: Tori Roloff Opens Up About Miscarriage

Published: July 23, 2024

‘One Day, We’ll Get to Meet Our Baby’: Tori Roloff Opens Up About Miscarriage

By Movieguide® Contributor

LITTLE PEOPLE, BIG WORLD star Tori Roloff is opening up about her miscarriage that occurred before welcoming son Josiah, noting that one day she’ll see her baby.

“It was not on my radar that something was wrong,” Tori recalled about the baby she lost at eight weeks. “I remember thinking, ‘This pregnancy is really easy, this is going really well.’”

At her eight-week check-up, the ultrasound tech told her the baby’s heart stopped three weeks prior.

“I can remember just being so mad at my body after that,” Roloff said on a recent episode of her and her husband Zach’s podcast. “I had what was called a missed miscarriage, which means that my body didn’t realize that the baby passed on. So I was left with the decision with how do you want to move forward ’cause it had been three weeks, because that’s where the growth had stopped.”

“I immediately started crying,” she said. “This isn’t happening. This isn’t real. There is no way this is happening to me.”

Roloff felt grateful for the ultrasound tech who was there, a woman who immediately provided her comfort.

Roloff explained, “She was like ‘I’m going to let the doctor tell you, but I don’t see a heartbeat.’ And I just remember her taking my hand ’cause I just immediately started crying…She knew that we were believers, and she took my hand and she said, ‘You know, I’m a daughter of Christ, and I know that there’s a purpose for this.’”

“She didn’t leave me hanging. But I think it was a huge mind shift for me because every time going to those appointment was such a fun experience. Like it was so much joy and it was on that day that like everything shifted in my brain about what that clinic is,” she said.

Movieguide® reported on the miscarriage in 2021:

“I’ve honestly never felt loss like I did in that moment. I’ve never felt so sad, angry, and scared in a single moment. I had no symptoms of losing out sweet angel baby and nothing could have prepared me for hearing our sweet baby was gone.”

Despite her heartbreak, Roloff said that she is comforted by the peace found in knowing Jesus.

“I also thought about how the first face our little girl or boy got to see was Jesus. I’m so upset that I never got to see their face but I rest in knowing he or she is with our savior and I will meet them one day,” Roloff said. “My husband has been my unwavering rock through this whole journey. He has been by my side through it all and I couldn’t have done it without him.”

After eight months, Roloff became pregnant with Josiah, who was born in 2022.

“We didn’t tell people that I was pregnant with Josiah until I was halfway done,” Tori explains. “Because I didn’t want to go through that again, and we have to backtrack.”

“It’s hard to picture our life now without Josiah. That’s very difficult for me to picture where we would be without him and how much I’m obsessed and I love him. He would not be here if it wasn’t for everything that happened. One day, we’ll get to meet our baby,” she said, referring to eternity in heaven.

Roloff and her husband, Zach, announced their pregnancy and miscarriage on their TLC show, LITTLE PEOPLE, BIG WORLD.

“Three kids, you get kind of excited, you announce it a little earlier,” Zach said. “You get a little bit more excited and you jump ahead a little bit. That’s what I remember telling the TV people, the family.”

“Sharing things on camera that’s sensitive in the form of reality television is tough because it has to fit into their storyline or their structured episode,” Zach explains. “They can’t show at 20 minutes, they can’t share a 20-minute explanation, which we feel is necessary to understand your point of view. That’s what makes it tough.”

They felt frustrated that they couldn’t fully express themselves on the show.

“They won’t do it the justice that it needed,” Roloff said. “This is our baby. To me, when you get pregnant, that’s a baby. So when we lost that baby, that was like we just lost a part of our family.”

All three of the surviving Roloff kids, Jackson, Lilah and Josiah, have dwarfism. In an earlier podcast episode, the Roloffs talked about their love and gratitude for their perfect children.

“I cannot look at my kids and see anything but the grace of God and the love of Jesus…They’re miracles,” Roloff said. They’re blessings.”

“They are my life even when parenting is hard. Even when I feel drained, I still, at the end of the day look at my kids and just go ‘Thank you, Lord, for giving me this life, giving me this family, and allowing us to do what we do,” she said.