Only ‘Grace of God’ Stopped This Country Star’s Suicide Attempt

Published: July 31, 2024

Only ‘Grace of God’ Stopped This Country Star’s Suicide Attempt

By Movieguide® Contributor

Country star-turned-pastor Granger Smith recently opened up about his deep loss, suicidal thoughts and IVF with Allie Beth Stuckey on her podcast.

“[I was in my] tour bus with a gun, deciding the world would be better without me, and in that moment, only by the grace of God, I noticed, there was something else, another presence,” Smith said. “It was pure evil. It was a voice that said, ‘This is the way to rest. Just pull the trigger.’”

“The catalyst, no doubt, was June 4th, 2019. We lost our little boy, River. He was 3,” he said.

Smith was watching his three kids in their backyard when River got through the pool’s safety gate and drowned. Smith’s wife, Amber, was in their house at the time.

“If she ever would have said, ‘How dare you?’ it might have crippled me,” Smith explained. “But she never, ever did that.”

“And I would think, why are those people in the front row not raising their hand? What’s wrong with them? And then I just knew, performing is causing me to sin,” he said.

He realized he needed to surrender and give up his career for Christ. He’s now a pastor.

After River passed, Smith and Amber had another son, named Maverick, through in vitro fertilization.

“We ran into an immediate problem. What we know from it now, there is so much evil surrounding it, evil coming out of it. The ability to put this kind of technology in evil people’s hands is too much to bear,” he told Stuckey.

In Smith’s podcast last month, he revealed that he and Amber, regretfully, had seven fertilized embryos who died before they had the opportunity to implant them or give them up for adoption.

Before the couple got pregnant with Maverick, they miscarried two babies in the womb who were conceived through IVF.

“I have had friends who have gone through miscarriages and it’s one of those things that until you go through it, you have no idea…what that pain is, not only emotionally but physically,” Amber said. “I had no idea of the pain you go through for hours and sometimes it takes days or weeks. I just have a whole new respect and compassion for women who experience this. And it’s so much more common than we know of.”

Movieguide® recently reported on Smith:

Country singer-turned-pastor Granger Smith is diving into deep topics on his podcast.

“God is Sovereign, and God heals who he heals,” Smith said on his podcast last week, answering a parent’s question about needing a certain amount of faith to be healed.

“There’s no holding back healing. God can and will and does heal completely,” he said.

“We understand that He does as He pleases. The Psalms say He is sovereign over all life. He knows every hair on your head. He knows all of our days are numbered,” he explained.

Smith was reminded of 2 Kings 13:14.

“This is the story of Elisha. He came after Elijah the prophet, and Elisha is in fact even more powerful than Elijah was. His prophecies in his mighty acts that the Lord worked through him. He brought a kid back from death,” he explained.